Broken In Spite...

Broken… when the decision was made to let go for good

Broken… with all of the love I had, I shared what I could

Broken… in spite of the promises and vows that were made to keep me safe, to protect me in every way

Broken… though I cried out, sung, danced, fasted, sought His face, and prayed day after day

Broken… even in the moments when I questioned God, His will, His Word, His very existence

Broken… left broken, wondering aimlessly, yet holding on to the little faith that I had

Trusting… that there was purpose in my pain

Trusting… that I could rise up, walk in truth, and love again

Trusting… that Elohim (Creator God), El Shaddai (God Almighty), Abba (Father), Jesus (Savior) exists as one and would strengthen, fight, correct me, speak that I may hear, and open doors for me that no man could shut

Trusting… that I would eventually see victory as the battle had already been won for me, though at the moment it seemed impossible to me

Trusting… that one day I would be healed as the Word proclaims and able to feel it and live it

Trusting… trusting… trusting

Broken… and trusting… but truth stands strong… it remains

And the truth is… maybe I don’t have enough love in my heart

Yet, I have always tried…surrendered my part

So, do not tell me that I don’t have it all together nor that I’m not good enough

A representation of my past… that is you, my end… not my beginning, my new start

My new life, my modern walk, new beginnings and hopes, fresh feelings and thoughts

Love lasts, true love anyways not the phony lust and/or infatuation that lasts a few months or even worse, days

Please… I see through it… discernment from the heavens

Discerning with His Spirit, speaking and revealing truth so that I may hear it

Loving me in spite of my flaws just because…

So I stand…patiently waiting…broken, yet trusting

That one day, someday, or better yet… Today as we speak, “call those things which be not as though they were” (-Romans 4:17)

“Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen…” (-Hebrews 11:1)

Though things are not necessarily crystal clear for me, I can trust that life goes on and seasons change

In due season, I will reap the good of the land considering that I faithfully continue to sow profitable seeds into good ground…

Broken… yet not destroyed… instead awoken…

Trusting… in the promises of the Lord

And I stand…patiently waiting…