Closure... Granting the Peace of Mind

Closure… granting the peace of mind

In former eras, it was hard to find

Wasting, dissipating days and time

Wondering, pondering what could be

Ignoring and paying no attention to what I could obviously see

That you were not who you claimed to be

What you spoke and professed never existed

Yet, because of your looks, eloquence, and array, it was hard to resist it

But following the atrophy, ensuing the tears

After the late nights, road trips, alcohol, dinners, workouts, and celebrations, I confronted my fears

I faced the truth of what was, what is

I believed you, because I wanted to

I believed you, because I did not want to lose you

I believed you, because my world needed a hero

My world needed someone in the flesh to save it from the misery

That it underwent with every breath

The pain within my heart when I encountered a near death

The abuse and misuse of those in my corner that had the most access

The fear of living in this world forsaken

The unease of not having all that I thought that I needed

So you… I chose to believe you, not necessarily for you

But for me; and now I can handle the cessation of you

Because you became a god to me; I worshipped you

I strengthened myself by the words spoken of and by you

That was what I needed or assumed I needed then

But, I was miles from being right and striking home

Yet, it’s fine, it’s cool; not needed, never was

Just an apprehension that had to be lived out, faced, and conquered

Loneliness, not being accompanied by others, another

The solitude, isolation, remoteness, seclusion, singleness, 

reclusiveness, lonesome stage of life

I was afraid to meet the day that I would have to live through it; but it arrived, unexpected

Yet, I was ready… prepared and trained for it

Life, the journey in which one that truly exists must travel

Whether delightful or distasteful, high-speed or steady, surrounded by problems or a boat load of lessons and tests, convenient or inconvenient, joy or terrors, peace or distress, risks or securities, success or failures

No one ever stated that we would live and experience the same identical lives at equivalent stages and levels

There comes a time when each of us must conquer the difficulties of life itself and live for ourselves

As I walk, breathe, and experience the life at hand

I can sincerely express my gratefulness today

For the closure that has granted me a peace of mind

I received life, joy, patience, peace, and the love that I was most afraid of experiencing on my own at one point and time.