Cry or Settle? Neither...

Feel like crying, yet I can't 

Feel like settling; but I won't because I believe too much

Caught between two worlds, two forces, stuck

The light has met the darkness

The in-between of what's here, what's now, what is to be 

Fully persuaded that God can still hear me

But the question is, will He respond at this time to me?

Will He allow the path to be made smooth?

Or will my faith continue to be tried?

As Job loss all before receiving an overflow of blessings 

In the test and following comes forth many lessons

Yet I cannot perceive the days ahead 

Longing, yet heart-broken and filled with dread

As every passion, every dream, has been laid down and declared as dead

Within my very heart and head

Lost, spiritually empty, no longer trusting the words of man

Nor entirely feeling the presence of God

Hoping, that joy and understanding will overtake me in the morning hours

That passion for God, for prayer, for love, to serve will soon return

Before I reach a place of no-return

Feel like crying, yet I can't 

Feel like settling; but I won't because I believe too much

Caught between two worlds, two forces, stuck

The light has met the darkness

The in-between of what's here, what's now, what is to be