Above That Bright Smile

Above that bright smile are swollen eyes from tears that could fill a lake

Within is a heart that continues to ache

From a faith that's been shaken to the core

Leaving the mind and intellect sore

As she attempts to understand if she walked through the correct door

Was she hearing clearly or simply distracted

By the lusts that invaded her privacy

And dismissed part of her identity

Above that bright smile are swollen eyes from tears that could fill a lake

Within is a heart that continues to ache

As it continuously flows with love then breaks

Like a levee with too much pressure and debris

Loving and no longer discerning deception

Making excuses and certain exceptions

Above that bright smile are swollen eyes from tears that could fill a lake

Within is a heart that continues to ache

And a body that continues to shake from anxiety, worry, fear, and doubt

Deep within her mind; it's hard to figure out

Passion? Dead.

Purpose? Invisible.

Life? Priceless.

She thinks to herself to put an end to it

Suicide, kill the pride

No one understands who she is

Lost identity

Faithless

Hopeless

No longer focused

No vision; we perish, she perishes

Above that bright smile are swollen eyes from tears that could fill a lake

Within is a heart that continues to ache

As she unveils the real and the fake

And is confronted with her own mistakes

To return to her vomit that she had once left

To welcome the hypocrisy of the religious that she was previously freed of

To embrace men that wanted to spread and multiply too quickly instead of heed the instincts

To chase the coins that cost her identity simply for security

Above that bright smile are swollen eyes from tears that could fill a lake

Within is a heart and soul that continues to ache

For authentic love, affection, and divine protection

Let it be a lesson

Understand that we are more than what meets the eye

Though we smile, laugh, and grin

Some of us truly want life to end

We need authentic love and support

Not condemnation

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Jesus commanded us to "love thy neighbor as thyself"

We're in a fallen world at a fallen state; and we hurt daily

We heal then get hurt again

As time goes on; we become stronger

The hurt doesn't stop; but it doesn't hurt as much as it once did.

Above that bright smile are swollen eyes from tears that could fill a lake

Within is a heart that continues to ache...