Can You See Me?

Can you see me when I close my eyes

Can you see me when I'm mute, no voice, no sound

Can you see me if my hair disappears and I shave my head due to cancer in my blood

Can you see me if I lose my legs, my arms, my bones, my skin

Or would I be misunderstood and pushed aside left for dead

Would you blame me for the pain and grief that I caused

Would you blame me for the money spent

Would you blame me for the years wasted on me, myself, and I

Would you leave me without a word, a single heartfelt good-bye

If you can see me like you say you can, see past the beauty

If you can see me like you say you can, see past the ugly

See my destiny, my being, my potential, where I'm going, not just where I've been

You said you were my friend, but I guess it came to an end

When I was hurting, yet pretended to be happy and hid the pain

When I was restless and crying out for help

You saw a flawed young lady that needed to go through and be tried and tested

Someone that had to attain knowledge and understanding for themselves

But I grew stronger and learned to hold on much longer

I learned how to be faithful and I began to grow

What you saw is not who I am

What you saw is who I once was, but I've grown from the past

From the tears that once drowned my face, the emotions that overtook my joy, my peace, my all

From the hurt that many caused

From the unforgiveness that lived deep within and burglarized my heart

I've grown from the temptation that once overtook me without much effort

From those secret things, questions, and regrets that would haunt me

I've grown to let go, to keep moving, to not stop, but to stand

So, I ask you again...

Can you see me when I close my eyes

Can you see me when I'm mute, no voice, no sound

Can you see me...deep inside...exactly who I am....

Repost 2015