My Bleeding Heart
My bleeding heart longs for a saviour
In the earthly realm that could hold me close and console me
That could love me unconditionally
Like Christ loves the church, specifically "us"
Someone who could lead and stand before me
Who isn't afraid to fight for me
These battles I encounter that leave bruises, scars, and resurfaced wounds
And sometimes psychological trauma that is hard to rid
Battle after battle, victorious yet scarred and wounded
How could a God that loves me so much allow so much to inflict injuries on his own daughter?
Because He allowed it to happen to His only begotten Son, the one who died on the cross for our sins though He himself had no sin according to the Word then rose again to be seated at the right hand of God.
How can one begin to comprehend such logic, such history as truth?
By seeking, researching, studying, knowing, and believing.
In the midnight hours when I cry myself to sleep, thoughts enter to overdose for release
Or to expose my veins so I won't have to explain that I've been carrying a lot of weight and pain
As I've encountered various individuals with disturbing agendas hidden by friendly facades
The hope that I had soon fell into the rushing waves and drowned and there I stood again reflecting on the banks of wasted time
Mentally and emotionally disturbed by those encounters allowed fear to come upon me, wrecking my safe space
Protector, I want a protector in the earthly realm to guard and take care of me
To keep an eye on me and truly fight for me
With a love and loyalty so strong that no man nor spirit can separate
That will be my knight in shining armor, my earthly king, my lover and best friend
A man that isn't afraid to fight for me when I can no longer fight for myself
But sees it as an honor and takes responsibility for me because he truly loves me
And isn't solely seeking sexual pleasure but understands it comes with commitment
My bleeding heart longs for a saviour
In the earthly realm that could hold me close and console me
A man who isn't afraid to fight, especially when he's fighting for me
Who knows how to use his words, his power and authority
Whose humble enough to bow before the Lord thy God
Who hears me when I'm silent and can no longer speak
Who sees me when I attempt to hide what's bothering and weighing on me
Who will wipe the tears that drown my face
Who will love me unconditionally and ensure that I'm safe
Who will be my loyal bestfriend and partner until our end on this Earth
Who will see me for me, as well as my value and worth
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