Stages of Grief

Shock...

Faith? Shaken

Heart? Aching

Denial...

Certain? Unclear

Not quite sure of what occurred nor what I'm supposed to do at this point here

Isolation...

Selfish? No, selfless to harbor the sorrow and trauma that no one should be able to feel over and over again

How does one get through heartache, delayed gratification, and unspeakable pain? One must go through it, not around it.

Pain... 

Agony? Unbearable

Anger...

Suicide? Considered

Depression...

Hope? Present yet drowning

Restoration...

Scriptures and affirmations? Quoting

Yet leaving me in tears, nearly choking

As I attempt to breathe through the words that leave my soft lips barely spoken

Acceptance...

Season? Foreign 

Go through it, not around it

Hope...

To love and trust again? For the sake of being fruitful, free, and happy, I will indeed love again... deeper than ever before.

Quote by: Henri Nouwen

"The more you have loved and have allowed yourself to suffer because of your love, the more you will be able to let your heart grow wider and deeper. When your love is truly giving and receiving, those whom you love will not leave your heart even when they depart from you. The pain of rejection, absence, and death can become fruitful. Yes, as you love deeply the ground of your heart will be broken more and more, but you will rejoice in the abundance of the fruit it will bear."